One of my goals for the year was to expand my freelancing portfolio, both by working with new companies and by getting enough pieces published to hit triple digits. While the year ended on a bang, with a new article being published as well as another article being selected to be transformed into a video essay, the new year has not been nearly so promising.

We're nearly two months into 2020 and already my plans are shifting in ways I couldn't have foreseen. While there's more changes happening than I'll cover here, everything we will talk about centers around one thing: My decision to apply to Utah Valley University.

In October of 2018 I stepped on the scale. 172 lbs. It had been two years since I'd seen numbers that high. One year since I'd proudly announced to the world that I'd finally reached the mid 150's. All of that progress, gone. I would spend the next 8 months never able to dip lower than 162lbs. And it wasn't until I was finally diagnosed with and medicated for ADHD that I would finally start to see my body begin to resemble the one I had missed. The only body I was able to recognize as my own. But I wasn't prepared for the ways it would be different.