It's so easy to get caught up in the hustle and bustle of things, especially when there's a lot going on in your personal life, and lately it's all started feeling like a little much. Don't get me wrong: I LOVE my life. Things seem to be getting better every day, but with a lot of upcoming changes and challenges and a few unexpected surprises, things have felt especially tumultuous. Luckily, all of those changes seem to be for the better, so I'm trying to look at all of them with an open and positive mind.
The biggest change
If anything was going to throw me off of my groove it was going to be my upcoming move. Only 30 days away, I was shocked to find out it was coming up so soon. For some reason I thought I had roughly 2.5 weeks more than I did, so I started scrambling to find a place. I knew that I wanted to move back to downtown Salt Lake, but I also knew that on my budget, that was highly realistic. So what did I do?
I started reaching out to downtown apartments looking for openings.
I know, I know, maybe it wasn't the best idea, I mean, most one bedroom down there are nearly a grand per month and that's not including any utilities or anything. But apparently God was on board with this decision because after reaching out to an apartment building I was interested in, the landlord contacted me letting me know of a similar opening. Within a week I was approved and as of today my deposit is down on an apartment located in the heart of downtown Salt Lake City.
Words cannot express how thrilled I am.
As it turns out, what I thought would be my biggest challenge has actually proved to be a source of constant comfort to me throughout everything else.
The Flip Side
Of course, while all of my dreams have come true with my future apartment, there is another side to my move. The move out.
If I'm dreading anything at all, it's leaving this current apartment. The prospect of recruiting help, paying for boxes and packing supplies for my dishes, deep cleaning the apartment and praying to god that my roommate really can get rid of the cigarette smell... it's got me stressing big time.
The good news is that I have a decent amount of time after getting settled at my new place to make sure that the South Jordan apartment is good as new, so hopefully the fees associated with leaving wont be too horrendous.
Of course, moving isn't the only thing that's been keeping me busy. On top of working full time and trying to reclaim my place at my company as a top performer, I've been really struggling to keep up with freelancing.
Pros: I revamped the site and got published on a new one
Cons: I'm behind on writing for CampusLife (two articles behind...) and haven't reached out to any other sites recently
I know that if I want something I have to work for it, but it's so hard to work for something when I'm already doing so much. But, the fact that I'm writing this is a sign that I'm working on it, as I've been meaning to write here for a week and just barely got around to it today. But I'm here. (I was watching Jane the Virgin up until 20 minutes ago, and really didn't feel like stopping, so be impressed)
The Gross Personal Stuff
Between the move and working my a** off, I'm already feeling chock full of stuff to focus on, but of course life is never that simple. Over the last few weeks there have been a number of surprising changes in my personal life, including a reemergence of someone I thought I'd never see again. It's thrown me for a bit of a loop to be honest, and navigating that on top of everything else is definitely a struggle.
Of course, all of this and more has left me feeling drained. All i want to do most days is stay in bed. But I'm here. I'm working. I'm making money. I'm making progress.
And in the end, I feel that that's all that really matters. And all of these changes, although challenging, are incredibly exciting, and I can't wait to experience each and every one of them.